I recently did an Instagram story asking you guys to ask me any questions you may have and all but 1 were asking me about my pregnancy. I’m sure those who asked those questions may have seen my announcement on my last youtube video where I explained why I’ve been gone since I have not posted it on Instagram or FB just yet.
Because I got mainly questions on my pregnancy I thought what better way than to address those questions and also share my family maternity pictures with you guys at the same time. I also decided to create a post specifically for those wanting to recreate my styled shoot you can check out that post here.
One of the questions I received was Why I did not share I was pregnant sooner? The truth is I had and still have severe anxiety regarding this pregnancy. From the moment I found out I was pregnant (which by the way it was pretty scary the way I found out) my anxiety increased due to risk for miscarrying up to 20-25 weeks along with the remainder of what took place throughout this pregnancy.
I can dive into how I found out I was pregnant for you guys on another post if you guys like, I plan to eventually do a youtube video explaining this as well as it was a very traumatic way to find out one is pregnant. With that said though I stayed quiet and away from as many of my co-workers, friends, and family until I was pretty much out of the heading out of being 20 weeks pregnant. Once I was cleared for miscarrying came the anatomy scan in which the techs were having trouble confirming that my baby’s mouth & spine was formed normally and so an additional 3-4weeks went by where I decided to keep to myself. I worried and went in week after week for more tests to confirm everything was normal until they were able to do so.
Once I was told the baby was normal and growing perfectly I felt a huge weight come off of my shoulders. Then came another set of worries about getting gestational diabetes again and all the stress that comes with that. I thought I would wait until I would pass my glucose test to make an announcement but then it turned out I actually failed my glucose test and failed horribly. ????
I’ve been so anxious especially with how this pregnancy started that I kept convincing myself to keep this pregnancy to myself until the baby would be here and safe in my arms.
Realistically, I knew trying to keep this pregnancy to myself as much as I could was going to be a lot harder than I anticipated and it definitely has been. It’s caused me to disconnect of social media as a whole with my youtube channel, blog and Instagram page as well as in person with friends, family & co-workers. I would get so many sweet messages from you all saying how much you missed my youtube videos but I hope that you guys can understand my reasoning behind it now that it’s out in the open.
My due date is actually right around the corner on Easter (April 21st, 2019, such a beautiful due date to have in my opinion.) Unfortunately, because I will be scheduled for a repeat c-section more than likely a week or two before that I don’t think my new baby will be delivered on my due date. I’m hoping for the latest possible date but because I have gestational diabetes this more than likely will not happen.
I also got asked If I knew what I was having and this time? Some of you may be surprised by my response however, this time around my husband & I decided from the moment we found out that we would be keeping it as a surprise. With my first, we found out right away and with my second we did an intimate gender reveal so we figure we’d make things a little different this time around and I’m so happy with my decision. In the meantime, I would love to hear what your guesses are whether it’s a boy or a girl!
Now that the frequent questions have been answered I will like to admit that I am still very much filled with anxiety regarding my C-section & delivery. I hope that you guys will stand in prayer with our family towards a safe delivery. We could definitely always use your well wishes as we embark this new journey as a family of 5. ????
As I mentioned up top I linked my outfit as well as the girl’s outfit in case you guys are wanting to recreate this color scheme for your family pictures you can check out that post here.
You can shop the looks directly through that post. ????
My Beautiful Girls ????
Thank you all so much for the love and continued support during this time I’ve been gone, you guys are truly amazing. ????